Day 1 - Loading Day

Well, today was my first day of my third attempt at the HCG Diet. I've had such a problem sticking to it. The first two times I lost twenty lbs but for some crazy reason that wasn't enough motivation for me. Anyways, here I am again, stuffing my face!!! I just found out that my sister is getting married at the beginning of July AND my sister in-law is getting married at the end of July. My sister wants me to be a bridesmaid and I can't picture my 255ish lb body in a tulip style dress!!!! Ugh!!! So here goes my third attempt. I'd better get my act together and do it fully this time without any cheating!! It's such and easy diet, it's just the sticking to it that is hard, plus cheating on this diet is like eating 10 times the calories that you are actually eating. I'm going to be 30 this year and I would really like to have a sense of control in my life and I also don't want to have to be worrying about my weight for the next 30 years of my life like I have this first 30 years. Also, I found a GREY HAIR today!!! My first!! I think it's time to put my health first!!  This time I'm not going to be worrying too much about the numbers on the scale, and focus more on what's healthy for my body and mind. I'm not sure how long I'm going to do the hcg this time, I'm going to take it one day at a time. I have to have something that I will do if I have an urge to cheat. I need to come up with something, maybe calling one of my friends that will talk me out of it, but I kind of want to do this on my own. Except for Gods help of course!! I think that He is the only one I can rely on, because it's almost like I have this rebellious thing where I want to do the opposite of what people tell me. 

Ok, off I go!!! Going to bed now! Tomorrow is going to be interesting, I wonder how much I'll be able to eat!!! Today was kind of torture!!! Anyways, I CAN DO this!!!!!!