Well, today was a successful day I think! I ate all raw until dinner then I ate some yummy Quinoa salad. Then I made some raw fudge balls, 2 different kinds from Allyssa Cohen's book, they were amazing!!! I couldn't believe how yummy they are! I think they will help me transition easier!!! I'm grateful for this day!

So I just read the first few words of each of my posts and every one of them starts with how I'm struggling. I am going to start focusing on the positive with the struggle a minimal part. I think that I need to start focusing on what is good and positive about what I'm doing and how I'm feeling. I'll start right now by saying how grateful I am for the abundance in my life. I am grateful that I am open to seeing who I really am, that I am willing to learn about myself and to seek knowledge in the things I love, I have hope that I will someday master what it takes for me to stick to raw and make positive choices every day. I will continue to learn about myself, and what I love. I will do the things that make me feel happy. I will love myself unconditionally. I have a wonderful husband who is interested in raw food for the first time since I've been doing it, (on and off for the last 5 years). 


I am grateful for this place to write about how I'm feeling, and what I'm thinking!


love

Well, I've been struggling a bit with wanting to eat cooked foods. I have a little but mostly I've been staying raw. I just really feel like it's important not to forget my passion about this way of life. I need to remember all the reasons that this makes me happy, why I LOVE it so much. I know without a shadow of a doubt that this will improve my life. When I go raw my emotions are always on the surface, that makes me deal with them instead of stuffing them down with copious amounts of cooked, gross foods, and without fail I always feel rotten after. Emotional eating has never made me feel better! NEVER!!! So why the hell do I keep on doing it? I need remind myself in that moment of all of the positive things that will come from me not eating and actually dealing with what I'm feeling, even if that's just allowing myself to feel what I'm feeling. Why am I so afraid of how I feel? How can I be ok with it? How do I truly accept how I'm feeling and love myself through the emotions? I want to be happy, I want to allow myself to be my true self. 


I allow love to be dominant in my life, I allow peace, I allow myself to come back to my true self. 




peace

So I've had a interesting couple of days, I've been doing pretty good. I've been eating mostly all raw, although last night we did a dinner and a movie, so we got DQ, then went to a movie and had some popcorn. I felt very full, like really heavy. It wasn't a very good feeling, I still feel gross today too. I made kale chips, cashew cheese, for dinner I made zucchini spaghetti with marinara sauce on it. It was amazing!!! Oh and I sprinkled nutritional yeast on top for a cheesy flavor! It was so yummy!! Then I got a hankering for a desert. So I made a raspberry, blueberry, banana pie! I made a  almond and date crust, then poured the fruit filling in. Now it's in the fridge chilling, in about 3 hours it jells up and then I'll put a cashew whipping cream topping!!! I can't wait for breakfast!!!! How great is a diet that you can have PIE for breakfast!!!!! I got my new spirilizer today! It was awesome. I used it for dinner. I also got 3 new raw food books, I can't wait to read them!!! There are so many amazing recipes in them! So much fun and yumminess!!!


Well,  I think I'll go to bed and read!


ciao 

well i've had a moment of weakness, i made pasta for my kids for lunch and i had a few bites, i had just eaten a big bowl of papaya with OJ and almonds, so it made me really full. I feel like I shouldn't have eaten it but I also feel like i can't beat myself up about it. I feel really full and uncomfortable. I am going to continue the day like I started, 100% raw, just because I ate something cooked doesn't mean that I can't go right back to raw! 


I really want to note how I feel right now and the thoughts that were going through my head. So when I decided to make that particular dish I was just thinking that my kids would eat it and it would be easy. I didn't intend to eat it when I made it, I fully thought that I could resist it. (it is my serious weakness!) When I was mixing it up I just took a bite and then I took another one. then after i went and sat down again and I was thinking about getting up and taking another bite. I even thought about writing about it on here and what I would say and if I thought I could go take another bite and still be able to make it seem like not that bad.  So I did go get another few bites. it wasn't worth it! 


I've had a crazy couple of days, I'm not really surprised that i reverted to my old ways!!! I just need to remember to be kind to myself and that part of being kind is being kind to my body and making good food choices. 


I'll write more about the craziness later!!!!


ciao

Wow, yesterday was hard emotionally. the beginning of the day wasn't so bad, except that i had a coffee in the am. the rest of the day was 100% raw, i felt tired in the afternoon so i rested with a show! then  we had a bunch of emotional stuff happen, and I've found that when I'm eating raw all of my emotions are right at the surface, i cry easily, and I'm affected by stuff more intensely. so i had a good cry a couple of times last night. i didn't have a headache though until i started crying and so i did take some ibu because i didn't want to get a migraine. i made some really yummy juice yesterday, pineapple, apple, carrot, kale, and celery, it was so yummy!!! for dinner i made an almond milk and banana smoothie, it was more like banana ice cream!!! it was so thick and amazing!!! i drank a whole blender full!!!! well, I shared it with my daughter! so a couple of times last night when i wasn't feeling that great i felt myself wanting to eat like chips or something, it was almost like i was feeling like that just out of habit. like i didn't really want to eat that kind of food. i just felt like, usually when i'm feeling like this i reach for those kinds of foods, so i should do it now too. but i didn't and i'm really glad because i know that i would have felt gross and i probably would have heartburn and my stomach would hurt and then i would have all the guilt around it and the feelings that i'm not good enough because i can't resist certain foods, and that i didn't chose what would be best for myself. and that right there is a perfect example of not loving myself. i think that loving myself is making choices that will be good for me, that will make me happy in the long run, and in the short run!!


i'm laying in bed right now looking out my window and everything is so green!!! it's beautiful! 


i made some nut/veggie burgers yesterday, so i can't wait to try them today!!! i think that i'll wrap them in some lettuce!!! i also want to eat more green today, i think that i'll make up a big salad and just have it throughout the day, it's the making of it that deters me from wanting to eat it! i think that if i had it all made up and i just had to add avos and dressing and whatever else, that i'd eat lots!!! so salads and burgers!!! i feel myself losing weight, i kind of don't want to weigh myself for some reason though. i have to weigh in tomorrow for my weight loss challenge that i'm doing so i think that i'll just do it then. i get so caught up in the numbers, i just don't want to have that as an added craziness!!! 


i've had a stuffy nose for the last few days, not sure if it's a cleansing thing or what. it's mostly there at night and then in the day time it goes away a bit. anyways, i'm going to start my day and be positive! 


ciao 

Wow, I'm really feeling some stuff moving around today! I've had a mild headache all day and have felt very tired and lethargic. I had a blackberry and mango smoothie this morning for breakfast. Then I had a whole papaya cut up with some fresh OJ, cinnamon, and some almonds. So Yummy!!! I've had a mango  and then I had some greek yogurt. I'm not set on being 100% raw, I'm open to adding some "cooked" foods to make the transition easier! But again I'm going to try to make the cooked choices be foods that I feel good about. I just got a bunch of veggies that I'm going to make some juice out of. I know that a balance of foods is good, right now it seems like I'm craving fruits more. I'm also not feeling like exercising although I know that that is going to be a huge part in my journey! I think I need to at least go on a walk! I know the importance of moving, I just think that this first stage is going to be a little more low key with the detoxing that I'll be going through. I guess I'd detox faster if I exercised though!!! lol The balance will come! The evening is when I have the hardest time not eating snacky type foods. If I can just get through the evening then I'm good! Ok, here's to another day mostly raw!!!


ciao

feeling out your food

I really feel strongly about the importance of how you feel when you eat something. I was talking to a friend last night about this, I can eat a huge plate of amazing, vibrant RAW food and have only positive, happy feelings. On the other hand I can eat a big plate of pasta with Italian sausages and parmesan cheese and have all kinds of guilt around it. Guilt with the choice to eat something that has so many calories and I can't just eat a small portion of that food! It's an ingrained comfort food for me and I can't stop until I'm stuffed so full that I want to puke! So awful, then I have guilt about letting my family down because I have kind of taken a step back in my progress, making the journey longer. I want to make the choice of Health! It feels so good to make that choice on so many levels!!! 

continuing the journey...

I've been on and off with the raw food for a while now, I did a couple of weight loss challenges and have lost some weight but I did it very conventionally! Now I am wanting to continue the weight loss but on a mostly raw life style! My dad was visiting me for a while and I introduced him to raw foods and he loves it!!! So the last couple of weeks that he was here we ate mostly raw, I taught him how to make cashew cheese and onion/veggie bread, I showed him how to sprout and he got really into it! So I've been doing it with him and I've felt great!!! There are so many things that are ripe and in season right now it's awesome!!! My counter is full of papaya, mango's, avocados, pineapple, and tons of ripe bananas!!! I have 2 huge bags of carrots and my husband and I, starting today, are doing a fruit and veggie feast with juices and smoothies and tons of fresh fruit! I'm so glad that he's doing this with me!!! I've been talking about this for so long and he's finally doing something with me!!! 


So here on this blog I want to write my story, I want to write about this journey that I am on. My hope is that by being able to write about what I'm feeling and the joys and struggles that will inevitably come up, I will be able to learn about myself and push on and continue this journey!!! I feel so strongly about the amazing benefits of raw food that I also want to share this with as many people as possible!! I feel like maybe sometime in the future I will be able to inspire people with my story, I know that I need to have my own story and journey first though!!! It is so worth it for me to do this!!! I just really need to find the strength to continue even through the hard times. I know that I am not perfect and that I will have things come up that I will have to work through and learn from. I am so excited about this!!!

Today was kind of a busy day, so I actually didn't eat anything until about 2:45 this afternoon. I made some carrot, apple, orange juice!!! so yummy!! Then I made an almond milk smoothie for my daughter and had some myself! That's what I'm drinking now!!! So delish!!! I never feel any guilt or remorse when I eat raw, that right there should be enough to do it all the time!!!! My biggest challenge with cooked food is when I have to make it for the other people in my house, so that's everyday!!! One of my favorite things right now is cutting up a half of a papaya, squeezing some fresh OJ, then sprinkling some cinnamon and almonds on top of it!!! It's so amazing!!! When I was 12 we ate that in Mexico for breakfast almost every morning!!! So yummy!!! I am so happy when I eat it!! I really like what Dan McDonald says about how to eat your food, with such gratitude and thanks for how amazing it is!!! Here's the video! It's really amazing!!!


Well, I hope to write on here often, at least once a day if I'm good!!! I really want to talk about it a lot!!! LOL  


So here's to radiant health!!!!




ciao