well i've had a moment of weakness, i made pasta for my kids for lunch and i had a few bites, i had just eaten a big bowl of papaya with OJ and almonds, so it made me really full. I feel like I shouldn't have eaten it but I also feel like i can't beat myself up about it. I feel really full and uncomfortable. I am going to continue the day like I started, 100% raw, just because I ate something cooked doesn't mean that I can't go right back to raw! 


I really want to note how I feel right now and the thoughts that were going through my head. So when I decided to make that particular dish I was just thinking that my kids would eat it and it would be easy. I didn't intend to eat it when I made it, I fully thought that I could resist it. (it is my serious weakness!) When I was mixing it up I just took a bite and then I took another one. then after i went and sat down again and I was thinking about getting up and taking another bite. I even thought about writing about it on here and what I would say and if I thought I could go take another bite and still be able to make it seem like not that bad.  So I did go get another few bites. it wasn't worth it! 


I've had a crazy couple of days, I'm not really surprised that i reverted to my old ways!!! I just need to remember to be kind to myself and that part of being kind is being kind to my body and making good food choices. 


I'll write more about the craziness later!!!!


ciao