Wow, yesterday was hard emotionally. the beginning of the day wasn't so bad, except that i had a coffee in the am. the rest of the day was 100% raw, i felt tired in the afternoon so i rested with a show! then  we had a bunch of emotional stuff happen, and I've found that when I'm eating raw all of my emotions are right at the surface, i cry easily, and I'm affected by stuff more intensely. so i had a good cry a couple of times last night. i didn't have a headache though until i started crying and so i did take some ibu because i didn't want to get a migraine. i made some really yummy juice yesterday, pineapple, apple, carrot, kale, and celery, it was so yummy!!! for dinner i made an almond milk and banana smoothie, it was more like banana ice cream!!! it was so thick and amazing!!! i drank a whole blender full!!!! well, I shared it with my daughter! so a couple of times last night when i wasn't feeling that great i felt myself wanting to eat like chips or something, it was almost like i was feeling like that just out of habit. like i didn't really want to eat that kind of food. i just felt like, usually when i'm feeling like this i reach for those kinds of foods, so i should do it now too. but i didn't and i'm really glad because i know that i would have felt gross and i probably would have heartburn and my stomach would hurt and then i would have all the guilt around it and the feelings that i'm not good enough because i can't resist certain foods, and that i didn't chose what would be best for myself. and that right there is a perfect example of not loving myself. i think that loving myself is making choices that will be good for me, that will make me happy in the long run, and in the short run!!


i'm laying in bed right now looking out my window and everything is so green!!! it's beautiful! 


i made some nut/veggie burgers yesterday, so i can't wait to try them today!!! i think that i'll wrap them in some lettuce!!! i also want to eat more green today, i think that i'll make up a big salad and just have it throughout the day, it's the making of it that deters me from wanting to eat it! i think that if i had it all made up and i just had to add avos and dressing and whatever else, that i'd eat lots!!! so salads and burgers!!! i feel myself losing weight, i kind of don't want to weigh myself for some reason though. i have to weigh in tomorrow for my weight loss challenge that i'm doing so i think that i'll just do it then. i get so caught up in the numbers, i just don't want to have that as an added craziness!!! 


i've had a stuffy nose for the last few days, not sure if it's a cleansing thing or what. it's mostly there at night and then in the day time it goes away a bit. anyways, i'm going to start my day and be positive! 


ciao